Beautiful budding star, 33, reaches success, commits suicide ‘…so lonely and depressed’

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Rest in peace, Stevie Ryan. (Image: Twitter)

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.

YouTube sensation Stevie Ryan committed suicide by hanging and died at age 33 on July 1, just one day after lamenting how much she missed her late grandfather.

You may not know her name, but her story is familiar: A beautiful young woman (or man) sets off to find fame, fortune and validation in Hollywood, only to succumb to inner demons after discovering money and celebrity don’t bring happiness.

Ryan became a YouTube sensation in 2006 with a video series called Little Loca, where she became popular for doing celebrity impersonations of stars like Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber. In 2012, Stevie starred in her own weekly TV show on VH1, which ran for two seasons.

While Stevie Ryan was best known for her sarcastic jokes and sometimes crass antics, she suffered from severe depression and debilitating mood swings all her life.

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Last week, Ryan said she was worried she might fall into a “deeper depression” after revealing her beloved grandfather had just died. Ryan made the chilling remarks on the podcast “Mentally Ch(ill),” which she co-hosted with a comedian friend, the Mercury News reported.

“I worry this will send me into a deeper depression,” Stevie said. “I’m not a religious person, but I feel like he showed me God and heaven on earth and the beauty of nature. I have him to thank for all of that.”

My dream man who I will only see in my dreams. I’ll meet you in Percebo, soon. I love you my Papa.

A post shared by Stevie Ryan (@stevieryan) on

The day before she committed suicide at her Los Angeles home, Ryan mourned her grandfather’s death. “My dream man who I will only see in my dreams,” she wrote on Instagram. “I’ll meet you in Percebo, soon. I love you my Papa.”

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Two days before she killed herself, Ryan revealed on her podcast that she had been battling depression for 10 years, had tried a variety of antidepressants, and had started getting transcranial magnetic stimulation, a procedure that stimulates nerve cells in the brain to combat depression.

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“I’ve been sad for so long.” — Stevie Ryan (Image: Instagram)

Ryan also confessed that she had recently stopped taking her anti-depressants. The brunette stunner previously said that the success she enjoyed from her YouTube and VH1 fame did not bring her happiness. “When I was doing well in life, I was so lonely and depressed,” she said.

Stevie said while she looked cheerful and carefree on the outside, she was constantly battling her inner demons. “I don’t know if I can ever be happy,” she said. “I’ve been sad for so long.”

If you are feeling suicidal, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255. 

Samantha Chang

Samantha Chang

Samantha Chang is a politics/lifestyle writer and a financial editor at Investopedia. She is a law school graduate and an alum of the University of Pennsylvania. You can find her on Twitter at @Samantha_Chang.
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